To Calm My Unquieted Mind!'s "My Greatest Achievement, Proudest Moments, & Highlights of My Life..."

1. 1. The Birth of My Son, Sammuel Drag me to re-order

2. 2. Starting College after the Death of Both My Parents & While Still Struggling to Maintain My Marriage with My Drug Addicted Husband & Raise My Son! Drag me to re-order

3. 3. Divorcing My Husband & Starting Over on My Own! Drag me to re-order

4. 4. Opening My Heart & Spirit to the Posibilities of Love - AGAIN & AGAIN... Despite the Pain & Disappointment of Prior Traumatic "Love" Relationships... Drag me to re-order

5. 5. Stop Playing the Victim of the World (or of anything or anyone or any situation for that matter!) Drag me to re-order

6. 6. Taking Back the Power Over My Own Life & My Own Choices - Owning It All... The "Good, the Bad, & the Ugly"! Drag me to re-order

7. 7. Realizing the Err of My Ways & Being Willing to See Myself Honestly - Even When What I Saw Wasn't Very Pretty! Drag me to re-order

8. 8. Walking Away from "Religiousness" - Despite the Accusations, Abandonment, & Betrayal of the "Church" When I Did So - & Reclaiming My Personal Relationship with God - Finding True, Deep, Lasting Spirituality & Spiritual Truth! Drag me to re-order

9. 9. Giving away everything I owned to follow my faith, vision, dreams, & passion to Afrika! Drag me to re-order

10. 10. Not killing or harming in any way my ex-husband when I found out that he is the one who got my son started with cigarettes, drugs, & alcohol - & had been the one often supplying him (getting high with him) for years as I was diligently striving to guide m Drag me to re-order

11. 11. Loving my son - accepting him Wholly & Unconditionally - regardless of behaviour or circumstances (& let me tell you something - there have certainly been some "circumstances" to challenge this)... And, seeing that evidence through him! Drag me to re-order

12. 12. Taking myself off of welfare (AFDC - at the time), food stamps, subsidized housing, subsidized daycare, medical assistance - all government assistance - when I still qualified because I was "ready" to make it on my own - regardless of the cost... to be fr Drag me to re-order

13. 13. Going from welfare to professional employment earning nearly $35,000 per year - with no college degree, & no major work history - nothing other than retail work earning a maximum of $6.00 per hour (but mostly at the rate of $3.40) - This when everyone sai Drag me to re-order

14. 14. Seeing my son through to high school graduation - knowing my love, support, encouragement, prayers, fasting (lol), diligence, & foot in his rear have greatly contributed to him completing this goal! Drag me to re-order

15. 15. Picking myself up off the floor after learning of my mother's passing & doing what it took to go on & see that my son was cared for & eventually finding hope in "tomorrow" Drag me to re-order

16. 16. Picking myself up off the floor after my "nervous breakdown" & finding the strength to go on one moment at a time Drag me to re-order

17. 17. Going back to work after two serious car accidents despite the constant & deep level of pain Drag me to re-order

18. 18. Walking away from each car accident with my life Drag me to re-order

19. 19. "Choosing" to parent my son - realizing I was resentful at his father (when my son was still quite young) for not being there & being free to leave when he wanted to - Realizing I too had choices - I could "choose" to leave my son too! Not an ideal choice Drag me to re-order

20. 20. Facing spinal surgery after the accidents... SURVIVING INTACT!!! Drag me to re-order

21. 21. Facing Chronic Debilitating Pain Daily! Drag me to re-order

22. 22. Addressing my own mental illness & all it's dark ugly moments... Drag me to re-order

23. 23. Just adding something to make the list incomplete! Drag me to re-order

24. 24. Help Britt Get through final year of high school at MCTC - through Post Secondary option - to Graduate with her class! Drag me to re-order

25. 25. Throw britt a graduation party! Drag me to re-order

26. 26. Encourage my son to be the grandest version of the greatest vision of the truth of who & what he is & can be! Drag me to re-order

27. 27. Continue to guide my adult son (soon to be 18) into adulthood - providing as many learning opportunities & examples as possible in his path for him to learn how to be a true man! Drag me to re-order

28. 28. Provided the foundation of spirituality, education (academic, culture, global view, unconditional love, nurturing & acceptance for my son to have all the tools he needs to go out into the world & become the man he is meant to be! Drag me to re-order