citir's "new year's eve"

i cant believe i stop seeing all of my friend before new years eve
it supposed to be a great night for everyone to celebrate this special day but for me i think im going to be all by myself for the first time
now i talk to someone whom i knew him for a long time but we are not exactly that close anyway
he said give them for some time, dont be so offended, they are your friends and they knew you for a long time but how can i explain i just cant
i cant answer their calls or cant return their messages
i just cant